One down one to go....

Finally on my way to recovery.  I received my letter that stated I am cleared from the mass on my liver!!!!  What great news, one less thing to worry about.  Now as soon as I get a Kidney life will resume back to normal.  I just can't wait to have my health back.

I have been really good this week by not going out but hangin out with the kids and Holly Z and Holly V.  Can't wait for New Years because I usually sit at home but this year I think we are going to get a hotel suite with Rumi and the kids!  What a perfect girls night playing board games and ordering room service.

Hope everyone has a safe and Happy New Year!!!

Ho Ho Ho

We celebrated Christmas today, even in the pouring rain we all made it up to Summerlin.  It was nice to see everyone and hang out for a few hours.  Instead of exchanging gifts we all bring gifts and play the dice game.  Although my father brings more and I mean WAY MORE than his share ....so we all end up with a lot of really nice gift cards.   I scored this year- so I will be enjoying those cards the next few months.

 I also went to the dentist this morning and finished up my cleaning so they faxed over the OK to the transplant team that I am good to go.  So now I just wait for the call to meet with the doctors from UMC Vegas and when I will be flying down to meet with the doctors from UMC Tuscon.   I can't wait to be on both transplant lists and wait for the day I get a kidney.

Get a few hours out tomorrow night so I better go get my beauty rest :_)  Have a great night!

Jo and her new dogs!

My sister :)

Chuck opening an awesome DVD.

Dice Game Gifts

Getting ready to place the dice game for gifts.

WOO HOOO

I had my MRI today for the mass on my liver.  I hate those machines so much, I don't think I said two words to my Dad before I went in as I had such anxiety.   Please pray that the mass is not growing and does not look to be anything worse.   It would relive some stress if one less thing was on my plate.

I know the next few months might be long for me and I just pray I get my transplant sooner than later.  My wish upon a star today is next year at Christmas to have my new kidney and be able to eat Christmas dinner with my family again and not have a renal diet anymore.   Once I get the kidney I will resume a normal life and I really can't wait to have my health back.

Although I still have a lot of work to finish I am already in weekend mode.    Tomorrow we are celebrating Christmas with my family and the girls can't wait, they are so excited I am sure they won't sleep much tonight. 

Thursday night I get to go to Rounders with Heather and Rumi.  I can't wait to just have a few hours out that night.  After a long week of work, shopping, doctors and holiday things 6pm on Thursday will not come fast enough!!

Had to put this photo in that my Dad took.... she is so cute!

Too Many People

What was I thinking?  Going out on Sunday to get a few Christmas Gifts, the mall was a madhouse!!!    So I only got one gift and we decided to leave.

Had to take my girlfriend Holly to the airport at 4:30AM so my Dad and I decided what a good time to shop.  I got all my Holiday shopping done in less than an hour, now that is so much better.  I think only 4 people were in the entire store. 

Today the girls are hanging with Deacon so I might go to the gun range so my sister can show me what this is all about.  I am not a big gun fan- they scare me and I don't believe in hunting animals.  But she swears it will relieve my stress so if it doesn't rain today I might be out there!! 

Big Game Tonight---hope everyone in Minneapolis is staying warm :)

Will post photo's if we head out to shoot.

Ready for the Holiday...

Well besides the fact I have not started my Christmas shopping I am ready for the Holidays.   I can't wait to take a break from work and relax a bit.  Although I am sure I will work a bit each day I no longer need to put in 8-10 hours of work a day for the next two weeks!!!  I can't wait.

It was another busy week but a lot of fun.  Girls had cheerleading performance, lot's of holiday parties and school functions.  And tonight a sleepover with their friends, we have already played a gift exchange game, made cookies, made hot chocolate, played hide and seek...and it is only 7:00PM.   It's fun to have so many girls running around the house being crazy.  Oh My they are in the kitchen right now spraying whip cream all over each other's mouth...sorry Heather your girls are going to still be on a sugar high tomorrow :)

Besides relaxing this week- I have MRI, Dentist, Blood Testing and my holiday shopping.   I hope to get out one night to relax even if it is just Rounders for appetizers, a girls night is calling my name.

Hope everyone has a great holiday!!  I want to take the girls bowling on Christmas Eve, I think that would be fun to get out with their cousin and family.    My Dad arrives into town on Sunday, so lot's of shopping!!  

Have a great week and stay warm. 



The girls cookies!



School Party

OHHHH SHIT!!!!!!

Just when you think everything is in control things start to spiral again.  Phone rings- it's my doctor, OK I am thinking I just gave blood they are going to tell me my iron is still low.....WRONG. 

Melissa is my real name and now when I hear that name I only think of bad news, I am starting to dislike my legal name because it only means terrible news is coming.

So I hear, "Melissa I need to let you know that your kidneys are slipping".  OK- so in the past 2.5 weeks I went from 20% to 16% and I went from 2.4 creatine to 3.9....OUCH.   I am almost scared to give blood again on the 27th.

They are setting up meetings with the transplant surgeons and doing to testing of the heart etc making sure I am ready for surgery but she said it might take 1-2 months before I am on the list- I feel like screaming...I DON'T HAVE ONE OR TWO MONTHS!!!!

I hate dialysis and will have to face this next month.  I hope I don't become this pissy person and I can still be positive and happy.  Goodbye Coke Cola, Goodbye Beer, Goodbye Wine.  Today is my last day to have any of you.  Hello Water....BORING. 

OK Gotta go get the kids at school :)  Until I write again Peace and Love and all that Shit!!!

Mols

Holiday Fun

 Last night was LT's holiday party- a local Decor company- at Eve's Nightclub in CityCenter.  It was so much fun to get out and see all my old friends and talk to everyone.  Of course Laurie did it up as she always does with Dancers and Models and Food and Drinks....what a way to start the Holiday Season.  Now if I can only put that much energy into my Christmas Shopping!!

My and my #1 gal in Vegas!!

Becky and Molly

Laurie and the Boys

Yeah, I thought the same thing too when I saw the girls!!

A Little Dancing



I was hoping he would do the worm...



Update

Just an update on my progress:

Went to Doctor and had my first round of TB tests, and my flu shot.  Then I got the flu!  Yes that was a long 5 days of Jordan, Alexa and Myself being sick with the flu.     And the nurse who gave me the flu shot did it so bad it hurt for days and bruised my arm.

Went to the Dentist today- 4 hours of filing my 3 cavities and doing deep cleaning and laser bacteria treatments to prepare for my surgery.  I have one more round of the laser treatment on Tuesday.

Have to go back to the doctor on Thursday for a second TB test and a Pneumonia vaccine.  So now that leaves getting my hepatitis shot- and those not from Vegas do not understand how bad this sucks.  I have to go to the health district and wait in line with all the casino workers and it could be hours to get this done.  YUCK!!

And tomorrow I get to fill out my living will and go have it notarized....and give blood which I need to do every 3 weeks at Quest.  This is becoming a full time job on top of my full time job :)

And the Mass on my liver- they have decided to do another MRI and then I go to the GI Doctor to review the MRI's for the past two years and give me clearance that is does not look to be cancer or a hemo mass.

So just in time for Christmas I get to start my transplant testing!!!  THIS IS GOOD.

After getting over the flu I feel really positive and ready to take on the world again.  I have been doing a ton of sales and booked up 2011 with clients.  I am really excited to take a break from everything for the holidays.

Side Note- to all my girlfriends that text and email me to get together.  My days are so filled right now with trying to work, attend Holiday Parties for work and all my doctor/dentist I am really not trying to be such a flake of a friend and not having play dates etc.  I am putting in 16 hour days between getting all my tests done and working my job and my kids.   Please forgive me :)

The girls are having a cheerleading performance at Galleria Mall on Saturday at 4PM- should be a lot of fun. 
Then dinner afterwards with the girls, a perfect weekend finally after being stuck inside all last weekend.


Just to add some color to my blog here is my arm after a week from my flu shot- the bruise was better but still not going away.

Change of Plans

I was all ready for a very busy weekend of girls fun when I woke up this morning to an even sicker child.  Yesterday Jordan was not feeling good, thought is was a cold, then strep throat but now she is throwing up.  So before I could even get her into the doctor to check her throat she started to get very sick.

So tonight's event with Cameron is on hold.  Now I just have to see if we will make it to snow days and have the Ripandelli girls over.  And have Cameron over also as soon as we can.  I was so excited to make cookies and hang out.  I am a little nervous if Jordan is sick all weekend that I do not go into a funk sitting at home with my thoughts.  The days are not bad but the nights when the girls go to bed are so quiet it gets hard sometimes.   I think a lot of baking- homemade mac n cheese, maybe homemade bread and cookies will be a good weekend with a sick kid.  Maybe a beer or two in between :)

On a positive note- here is the flyer for snow days- take your kids and enjoy the fun- hope we get to be there!!  and a photo of my baby :(  

SLOW DOWN....

Two posts in one day...it's a record :)  I can't slow down, maybe this is how I cope, I am not sure yet.  When I got home from the transplant meeting I was off again.  Holly took the kids to Chuck E Cheese so I took the opportunity to go out with Rumi to Rounders.    Since I have had kids I have been such a homebody- always having people over but never wanting to really go places.  But now I just can't seem to sit at home, maybe it is the fear of the lifestyle change with dialysis and being stuck at home or maybe I just can't sit at home with my thoughts.

I have booked myself up this weekend with the girls friends coming over so I hope this curbs my appetite to be on the go.  A good girls weekend of making cookies, playing WII, slumber parties and painting nails should keep me calm.

I am so thankful to have such good friends in Vegas to support me and take time away from their families to hang out.   I miss my girls in Minneapolis so much but feel so lucky to have great friends here!!!

OK I am going to try and get some sleep before more doctors and work tomorrow.

Rumi and Molly hanging out !!!

Oh...where do I start....

First off I want to thank everyone for the facebook posts, emails, texts and phone calls.  The outpouring of love and support is beyond what I would have ever dreamed.  I am so lucky to have so many friends and family all of the world :)

So today I had my first transplant meeting with my coordinators and social service workers.  There is so much information to pass on I will just break it down what is happening at this time.

Tomorrow morning I start preparing for my transplant tests- getting flu shots, and immunizations, getting my dental records cleared for surgery (can't have any cavities)  and getting my referral to a GI doctor to decide what to do with the mass on my liver.

After all my preparations are in order we start the actual transplant testing in the next few weeks- not sure what I have to do but I am sure it will be a battery of tests.

Once I complete all the test I am put on the transplant list- I have requested to be put on duel lists- UMC Tuscon and UMC Las Vegas.  I did ask about Minnesota but the hospitals do not  work with Deac's insurance. 

So I have two options:

1.  Cadaver Donor- Once on the transplant lists I will tour both hospitals and meet with both transplant teams to answer any questions and have the drill ready.   If it is UMC Vegas I will have 2 hours to get to the hospital and stay for 5-10 days after the transplant and then be at home for up to 12 weeks.  If it is UMC Tuscon I will have to drive to Henderson airport ASAP and get into a Medivac Helicopter and fly to Tuscon for my transplant stay in the hospital 5-10 days then stay at a hotel for up to 12 weeks.

2.)  Living Donor-  Should I find a living donor that matches we will schedule an appointment for transplant and same thing hospital then at home if Vegas.  The donor will be 2-3 days in hospital and then a a few weeks recovery off work.  This is a tough one- although I would like a living donor I would in no way want anyone to ever feel obligated just because oh let's say they are my sister :)  This is a most selfless act and I would not want anyone who is being tested to take this lightly.  It is not an easy road for the donor either and this would have to be something the donor and only the donor really feels they would want to do.  I would have the same respect and love for my sister if she said it is too much and couldn't do it.

So in the meantime- if I do not get a living donor in the next month or two I will meet again with my Kidney Doctor we will start to prepare for the tube to be put in place for dialysis.  My case worker said if I choose to do the 3 days a week in center dialysis I would be considered disabled and go out of work on disability but as much as I would love to not work I do not think this is a good option.  I think the 10 hours a night 7 days a week is a better choice.

If it looks like dialysis is coming I will be going back to Minneapolis for a mini vacation and a last girls night out before I am strapped to my house every night.....so get ready ladies!!!

I am very lucky to have such a great family to support me at each medical visit.   Deac is applying for Family Medical Leave so when I do transplant I do not have to worry about my two baby girls and knowing they are with their father will bring me much comfort.  If I do go to Tuscon I hope they will be able to come down and visit with me at least one time.  I will not be alone in Tuscon as my Dad and Mom could both take turns staying with me in the hotel so I do not loose my mind. 

I hope everyone has a great Holiday and remembers even when life is hard you always seem to make it through.   I am trying to stay busy with friends and family so I do not get depressed or feel sorry for myself, I am on overdrive these past few months- it is really hard to just sit at home alone at night when it is quiet.

Here are a few photos from our adventure of today- my caregiver team- minus my Dad who is in Minnesota :(

Deac, Sara and Mom

Deac, Me and Mom