Is it a fluke?

I hate to put things in writing because I feel like I might speak too soon.  But the past week I have been feeling better then I have in the past few months.  Is it because I let go and decided to only let positive energy in me, is it just a bump?  I have what's called a baseline which means my kidneys fluctuate and sometimes the GFR (which is basically my function) raises.  I have had my GFR jump 6 points before and I really feel like it jumped up again.  Last month I was at 15 so I am very curious when I go on Wed to my appointment what my new stat is. 

Plus I can tell in my body- I have small bruises all over my legs and they are almost gone!  I have gained 4 pounds which is hard to do right now.  The black circles under my eyes are getting much better.  I have not needed to take a nap the past few days and have energy to go the 12 hours I used to.

I must say from what so many of my friends and family tell me I am on many prayer lists and I truly believe all that energy has been passed back to me.  By the grace of God I am healthy enough at this moment to enjoy friends and life.   I don't want to have false hope so I am trying not to think maybe I am one of the 2% that goes into spontaneous remission but know that this is just him giving me what I was praying for to not be so sick.

If I can feel this way and get a transplant in the next few months then that means minimal interruption to my life which is WAY MORE then I could ever ask for.

If I keep feeling this way I think I should take the girls to Disneyland this month in case I can't travel the next few months if I get a kidney.   I am thankful that their father will take them on vacations this summer so the girls still will get to do all the traveling they love to do!  I want going to the Midwest and running in the grass, seeing the animals at the farms and walking to get ice cream be part of their memories as a child.  Vegas is great and I love it but as a kid there is nothing like the country or the suburbs back home.

Ok I will write after my doctors appointment and let you know if I did go up on my numbers or if I was just reading too much into this right now.  I can't wait for the weekend and Saturday....it is hard to work when I just want to have fun right now :_)