Can't sleep....

Sitting here every night for hours and hours in bed just thinking about the surgery and how bad I hate my cath cause it still hurts.  I think i sleep about 2 hours a night right now.

So....dialysis....well....it was awful!!!  They took too many fluids which made me very sick.  My bones hurt so bad I was shaking.  This started about 20 minutes in and I lasted 1 hour and 15 minutes.  It was some of the worse pain ever..made my catheter pain feel like a paper cut and giving birth was a joy compared to this pain.

So now I sit awake wondering do I try it again tomorrow? Or just skip it and see what the surgeons say on Wed when we are in Tucson for our pre testing.  Such a struggle..not sure what the outcome will be...depends how strong I really am to go again and risk the pain.

I am so upset with myself for opting for dialysis in the first place and not sticking it out the 2 weeks.

Cant wait to be on the plane on wed....got my new bikinis to lay by the pool...in the 95 degree weather :) 

Side note...once again on cell blogging so ignore typing and errors!!